Ex Mormon #11

If I were to title this post, I would call it Who Needs Pornography When They Can Be A Mormon Instead.


Let me explain.

Mormonism is a sticky, muddy mess of Christianity.  It was really quite brilliant of the founding man, Joseph Smith, and I must say clever indeed.  He took all the good in Christianity and added a complete perversion to it and called it a new religion.  This clever deception made it impossible for me to see the errors of Mormonism when I was in it.

So, why would I relate Mormonism to Pornography.  Well, it's simple really.  It is indisputable that when a person becomes addicted to pornography in an unhealthy way, that it becomes impossible for that person to form a normal and healthy attachment to a real, live, breathing person.

So it is with Mormonism.  Mormon men are taught that they will have privileges in the next life of multiple wives in the great Celestial Kingdom with endless amounts of sex.  Women don't get multiple husbands.  Women get an eternity of creating new spirits that will go into human bodies that will inhabit a new earth, alongside multiple sister wives.  But, the only way a husband and wife get to be a part of this master plan is if they are sealed in one of the LDS Church's many temples.  Oh, the pressure to be sealed there.

Men also have a Priesthood ordained upon them.  Not to mention that the leadership in the Ward's are men.  The men are taught in their meetings that the Lord will communicate with them in regards to family matters.  Sorry women, because you don't have the Priesthood, God won't communicate with you, you'll have to wait upon your husband for any knowledge regarding family matters.  If you have a thought, well, it won't matter, you don't have the Priesthood.  If you're lucky, your husband will consider your feelings.  If you aren't lucky, you will sit waiting upon your husband like a child, ever hoping someday you will get to be treated like an adult.

Might I take a moment to mention the temple.  In the temple, a man is given the new name of his wife before they can get married.  The woman is told that she cannot enter God's presence without her husband calling this new name and pulling her through the veil.  Husband knows wife's new name, wife doesn't know husband's.

I don't know if the LDS Church has made a mess of your life like it has mine.  But, for the same reason that pornography destroys that natural, healthy bond between a man and a woman, so does Mormonism.  A Mormon couple doesn't stand a chance to start their marriage on equal footing.  There will be nothing natural or healthy about your marriage.

It is astonishing to me sometimes when I reflect on the knowledge that I once believed in Mormonism.  There is so much perversion in it, that I find myself baffled that I once so innocently accepted it.

The innoculating that the LDS Church does so that its' member's won't go looking for the real truth of its' evil beginnings is well thought out and a carefully crafted deception.  Oh the shame.  Shame on those men and women who hide the truth.

I realize that there are some women in the Mormon Church who dominate their husband's.  It is prevalent.  Those women, for whatever reason, have found men who don't take advantage of the great power that the Mormon Church promises is their's.

There are several people who continue to come to my blog, but none of you guys are commenting.  That's okay.  I don't know who you are and I will keep it that way.  But, I realize this post isn't all inclusive regarding the complexities of how damaging Mormonism is to marriages, and it is meant to be that way.  If I were talking to any of you in person, we would be able to discuss all of the different scenarios that would cause marriages to be damaged by Mormonism and the similarities that that destruction has with Pornography.

Ex Mormon #10

I had a dream last week that was pretty interesting.

I was on a football team. A game was being played. I was on the sideline and wanted to go in the game. I was all excited when the coach says to me, "No. You can't go in. It's not your turn." I was totally bummed to hear that and my excitement destroyed. 

That pretty much sums up how I feel in my life right now. I'm totally injured from injuries I sustained from a fall 10 years ago, and I have athletic injuries from exercising too soon after having a baby.

So, add leaving a religion and the beliefs that were once so dear to me, and I feel completely broken and out of the game of life.

But, it is telling that I was ready to get in the game. To get a chance to have the chance to make a difference in the game. 

The bench warmers help the starters in practice and their role is vital in regards to the success of their team on game day. The bench warmers need to be ready when called upon to enter the game when the starters need a break, are injured, or the coach wants to run special plays. Sometimes starters are injured indefinitely and a bencher gets to be a starter.

I feel like God is the coach in my life. He has the reins and I'm happy to submit myself to His guidance. I don't know what He's got planned in the future for me. 

When I get to be a part of the game, I think I'd like to go to real estate school. I'd really like to buy beat up houses, fix them up and make them beautiful for people to buy. Sounds good to me.

I love gardening too and another part of me would love to do a nursery.

I'd love to homestead too. Have a bee farm. Own my own cow for my own milk. Have chickens for my own eggs.

Bench warming...

But, if you've ever been a bencher, it's tough to be patient.